Innocent Voice

Yeaah , I mean it . For you .

Never say I love you if you really don't care about me . Even once .

Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there . Get the point ?
Never touch my heart if you are going to break it into pieces .
Never say you are going to , with me , if you don't plan to start with me .
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never bother saying hi . If you really mean goodbye , at last .
If you really mean forever then say you will try. Never say forever .
Because forever will always makes me cry , in my heart . 

I dont even understand why does it end like this . Why can't it be the way it was . Where all the things were okay to feel together without hesitation .

At last , nothing's stopping us . Except from you !! Why ?? WHY ????
Where , where did all the things we had go huh ? Was it so bad SAYANG ??
I'd like to not think so . Maybe it's just me . Sweating of it .
But I don't want for us to not be like this ..
I hurted , perfectly . It is PAINFULL . Everytime that I can't just be with you ,
Is the way that I used to be with myself , my diary .
It's me , my feelings over-riding . Yeahh . Hitting my soul . Hardly .
When I saw you , I cant sleep at night , I would just keep picturing you in my mind . I won't it actually . But I can't . Yes , I can't .
I can't believe that you don't feel the way I feel for you .
I'll just succumb to my insanity of reality , that's never quite so real .
The feelings I've always had are still there . Never quit , yet .
I've tried living without you , no thoughts about you .
But it doesn't work . I just seem to want you more and more .
If I can't be with you . Dear Allah , I don't want this feelings . Please pull it back and give it to her RIGHTs . You are the only one that always takes away my pain . But , it still seems to cause me more
How ? how are you the way you are ? So close to me and yet so far away .
What's left for me to do . I've lost my Ms.Right . I thought that she was you
I know you're not perfect . But , I still love you the way you are .
There's nowhere else for my love to go . I gave it all to you
If you still feel the way that I still feel for you till now .
Why , why can't we be like we was ? Why can't we listen to what's in our hearts ? Erghh . Mind freaks ! You will miss me when you know who am I , and who am the wrong one .  

P/s - My name is Ashraf and im not the wrong person . Thank you . Peace upon with you .

Si photogenic and manja . =) PART 1

27.11.2010
All Rights Reserved

                                      TEATER NATRAH


Location: Port Makeup , Istana Budaya

Sedang aku berjalan nak pergi pintu depan untuk lepak dengan Fathi , si budak UITM yang amik kos Seni Lakon , aku dengar Liyana panggil aku banyak kali tapi sumpah aku takut nak pusing tengok die . Tapi aku tengok jugak si Kechik ni ;


Liyana ; Hey ! Heyhey ! How old are you ?? You Boyfie die ek ?
Achapp ; Ouh , hey .. Sorry I tak perasan you panggil I . Err , 7 , teeenn . =)
Liyana ; Its okay dear . You boyfie die ?
Achapp ; Taklah . Kawan jer la .
Liyana ; Elelehh . Comel . hehe .


               (*tampar2 pipi . Takut tengah mimpi . haha) -26,11,2010-




P/s , you , sorry tak bagi tau pasal conversation ni . Hehe . Jangan ckp kat liyana plak . Dah la I post kat blog ni . Kang , segan jer i nak pi Natrah lagi . Nanti i dah segan nak duduk kat tepi pentas n nak sembang2 . hehe . Btw , Thanks a lot to you , crew yang lain pun baik . Sharifah Aryana , Ludsia and Abg Aaron Aziz . =)
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Nawaitu Lillahitaala

This is mine . =)



 Kalau kau adalah pilihan tepat die , for sure die adalah pilihan tepat kau . Jangan la kau tinggal kan die . Sebab die tak kan tinggal kan kau . =)
Kalau kau nak melamar untuk couple dengan die , kau cari la tempat yang gempak sikit . Contohnye , Masjid Negara . hehe . Tapi kena SABAR banyak k . Confirm alhamdulillah punya la . Give thanks to Allah okay ? =)
Kalau dia ajak pergi manamana , jangan la sesekali kau tolak permintaan dia tu .
Kalau die call kau time malam2 sbb kena kacau or ada gangguan apa2 ke , kau buat dia happy dulu pas tu suruh die amik bantal busuk die and letak kat atas muke die k .
Kalau die mintak kau stay on the phone dengan dia time die tengah takut , kau buat jer . Tapi kalau die diam lain mcm jer , kau pun tidur jer lah ek . Esok die akan hantar text , "Thanks pasal semalam . =) " . Sebab die sangat selesa tidur dibawah pantauan orang yang die sayang . hehe
Kalau die tipu kau ke ape ke . Kau jangan buat kantoi . Tapi kau kaji kenapa die buat macam tu . N hasil daripada kajian tu , kau akan dapat tahu yang die memang nak jaga hati kau . 99% aku gerenti . Kau sabar jer . hehe .
Kalau kau dapat bantal busuk die , means kau lelaki kedua yang pernah die bagi pinjam dia punya bantal bucuk tu . Kau jangan sedih sebab jadi lelaki kedua . Kau kena fikir positif , baru kau rasa better and hebat . hehe

Kalau die bagi kau pinjam bantal busuk die , kau jaga la lek lok k . JANGAN GIGIT bantal tu . Nanti die gigit kau balik . hehe . Jangan pulak pandai pergi basuh bantal tu . Die akan mengamuk and kau tak kan percaya , itu dia . hee

Dan yang terakhir , setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan . Jika kekal ke pelamin , Alhamdullilah . Jika sebaliknya , juga Alhamdulillah okay ? =) . Bila hati dah bertemu . niatlah kerana Allah . Bila hati dah berpisah , niatlah juga kerana Allah .

Yang Ikhlas ,                                                                  

Ashraf Bahari

P/s ; Kalau aku ingat lagi . Aku edit balik okay . Tc

Tears

Tears , it's a normal creation from God to us . A happy and sad tears will happens when some of us are having any incident in their life . We cant stop for it to happens because it come out by itself and yeah someone will wipe our tears if he/she really cares about us (: Throughout the life time we meet thousands of people that we dont even think of right now or maybe we forgot about them a long time ago can make tears on our cheek . But often in our lives , we meet some "sweet and special" person that makes us think , am I so special ? Often times we dont realize how much a person means to us in life . It's the so called "GOD'S PLAN" that make us in contact with certain people , which changes our life forever and probably when this things happens , we will cry when we think about it . As my story , people say time heals the pain . Yeah time do heals the pain and same as my tears . My tears are always with me whenever I go or think about someone . Despite for my recent break up not just long ago , I honestly stated here that im now feeling much better . I do cry for her because of what have happened but yeah now im feeling much better .

I give myself some time . I prayed , I let my heart heals bit by bit . It wasnt that completely but then again , at least im in a state that is far more better than when it first happened . Reason is , I had friends like you all out there who encourages me to move on even dedicated a blog post for the heartbroken or something related with tears to remind us that it's not the end of the world when one relationship ended . Sometimes , one may wonder why there is someone who just got their heart broken and tears , then found themselves new love in merely a short time ? While there are some people who willingly to spend their lives in years and years alone , mourning for the lost love ? Are people who found new love so fast consider as untruthful , while those who mourned and live alone can be called 'A Hero in the Name of Love' ? Remember , even the character Rose Dawson in Titanic too , married and moved on after the lost of her love .

It's a subjective question that only those who have the heart knows , a really soft heart that cry easily . Why there are some couple was known to have "I hate you , but I love you and I cant live without you" relationship ? Why a couple still willingly to give their relationship another chance even if one of the partner was caught cheating . Love seeks perfection or accepting those flaws and accepted it as it is ? And im telling you guys, no need to make a tears to someone who is not deserve to be with you , but make a tears for someone who make you happy and smile . That is more worth than anything , is a happy tears (: So let me ask you , how long would you want to cry and want to wait your heart heals until you find a new love after the lost one ? 1 month ? 6 months ? 1 year ? 10 years ? Forever ?

It's up to you because love is timeless and tears are just like so worthy , should not ask it to always come out . Therefore , everything from the beginning , is solely from your choice . It's not because of the person who broke your heart and you wanna cry all day long . They had moved on and left us alone , leave us wondering what to do with the pieces because they no longer needed them . So what are you going to do with those pieces ? You will heal , it can be healed , IF you let yourself heal and not heal with tears .

You choose

I have a dream .

Just gambar model . I minat dia . Hee =)

I buat persembahan pun satu pentas dengan dia . HAHA . Bapak best . " The day I first met her" . =))

People never deceive their own hearts . So , its just like me . I just want the best for my future wife , and I have already discovered the characteristics of my ideal woman , and this feature has been etched in my heart . Nothing left , I have to be patient and wait . Yeahh , I'm waiting , and keep waiting . There is never tired . I can't force her to become what I wanted . But , only God can provide guidance to her to be what I want and what is required by Islam . I love her and I will take care of her properly , perfectly , correctly . Yes , I will .  However , i really have to wait for the heyday . Yes , it will arrive .

P/s ; Jangan risau ye if you bukan ciriciri yang I nak  . I tunggu you bilabila pun . =)

The Band of My Soul

                                              

PhobiaPhoney

I love this band . I really love them . I own their first album . =) and for sure I will not miss the second one .

GIVE ME a B.U.N.K.F.A.C.E NOW !!! =))

C.I.N.T.A by D'Bagindas

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Berapa kali ku harus katakan cinta

Berapa lama ku harus menunggumu

Diujung gelisah ini aku
Tak sedikitpun tak ingat kamu
Namun dirimu masih begitu
Acuhkan ku tak mau tahu

[*]
Luka luka luka yang kurasakan
Bertubi tubi tubi yang kau berikan
Cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Tapi aku balas senyum keindahan

[**]
Bertahan satu cinta
Bertahan satu c.i.n.t.a
Bertahan satu cinta
Bertahan satu c.i.n.t.a

Pernahkan engkau sejenak mengingat aku
Pernahkan ingat walau seperti angin berlalu

Di setiap malam kini aku
Tak sedetikpun tak ingat kamu
Namun dirimu masih begitu
Acuhkan ku tak mau tahu

P/s , Specially for you , Heart Criminal .



If or Perhaps .

read this dear ,

Only you my heart since we had together. so I was afraid to fall in love with someone else. because I do not want to ruin our love. we never parted. You touch the love of others. I was depending on me to love other people who I am not sure there is love. If I will not live with you. I hope that you will never forget our relationship. I love the crew will never fade. even though you hurt my heart right, I'll still love you. I accept if you are not with my soul mate. but you should never assume I'm not trying to be your soul mate. I love you, and if I was not living with you. you watch your best mate. meeting a mate, death comes. all in the hands of God. I was not able to change all that. who am I to change all that. We can only plan, but God determines. I am pleased reunited again with you, I hope your hearts lasting. if it was all just fantasy to me. I was also pleased. specify all of his god. you will remain in my heart . Forever <3

I'll stand by you . Always :))

Past , is past .

I broke up with my girl few months ago . Then my friend ask me why i dont feel sad . then i said , should i feel sad ? i lost the one who never love me . She lost the one who really2 love her . She will miss me when im gone . Now im gone . I really gone . I wont back . I keep moving .

P/s ; Jangan satu hari nanti , kau dah kena balik then ada orang cakap kat kau , tu laa , time die sayang kau , kau ludah die . Time tu , kalau kau taknak nangis depan orang pun tak pe la sebab kau 'malu' kan . So , kau menangisla puas2 dalam hati kau ye . Tuhan adil , kau akan menangis dalam hati . Even setitik . Then kau fikir lah sape diri kau . Perangai kau . Hati kau .  =)

Sincerely,
Ashraf Bahari

Forget it , and live on .

Even she got someone else , I still can SMILE .

You can shed tears that she is gone , or you can smile because she has lived . You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back , or you can open your eyes and see all she's left . Your heart can be empty because you can't see her , or you can be full of the love you shared . You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday , or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday . You can remember her only that she is gone , or you can cherish her memory and let it live on . You can cry and close your mind , be empty and turn your back . Or you can do what she'd want : smile , open your eyes ,  love and go on .

Aidiladha 2010 di perantauan

Faiz , Acap , Amir , Hafidzi , Baem , Ajmal , Naim

Dari Jauh ku Pohon Maaf

Even raya kat KL . Aku rindu diorang giler2 lahh . ahaha . selamat hari raya aidiladha tau semuaa . hehehe =') . Ayah , Ibu . Doakan kejayaan Ashraf dalam SPM k . Ampuni dosa2 Ashraf tau . Dari jauh ku pohon maaf . Pleasee . I love you Ibu , Ayah and adikk . Wahai kawan2 . ILOVEYOUUALLL !!!!

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